I’m Going To Meet Me To Give Myself A Chance

I’m tired of being the last person to look out for me. The one that is for everyone, but never for herself. Who thinks that it bothers others if he says what they do not expect to hear. I want to end this now. I have decided that I am going to give myself a chance.

I want to end all those worries that make me who I am not. Those that are born from the attempt not to disturb those around me, but that somehow hide my true identity. And also the feeling of collateral guilt, the one that accompanies me every time I think that others expected something more from me.

I wish to remove this disguise, this mask under which my true identity lies. I do not want to be more in the shade or be the one who always agrees with everything if it really is not like that. I’m going to stay with me to give myself a chance.

Wanting me to prioritize me

From now on I’m going to start loving myself. Although it is true that it is not something simple, since my tendency is to criticize and blame myself for almost everything. I will do it little by little, without haste, but without pause, and most importantly, really.

Every day, instead of punishing myself with everything that I have done wrong, I am going to congratulate myself  for everything I achieve, in addition to conserving and enjoying everything that simply does me good.  It is about changing the perspective and observing myself in another way, the one from which I feel proud of myself. Maybe I have little practice and it costs me what it is, but if I never start, it will be difficult for me to come to value myself and thus, it is impossible for me to be able to prioritize myself.

Another thing I’ll do is accept myself. That’s how it is. I will give myself permission to be that person who shelters inside me, the one who until now felt panic about leaving and feeling rejected. I will show myself as I am. And I will do it not just for myself, but for everyone. I will be the same person alone as accompanied.

In addition, the most important promise that I will make myself will be to prioritize myself, that is, to ask myself in all kinds of situations how I am feeling and what I want and based on that, decide. Not like until now that, if you asked me, it was to find out how others were and what they wanted, and then act accordingly.

I deserve to be happy

If there is something that I deserve and that until now I have always denied it is to be happy. So I’m going to give myself a chance. I’m going to meet me to look deeply into my eyes, so that what I do begins to align with my wants or needs. That’s right, I’m going to be honest, hold my hand and never let go again. I want to be my company, my support and my shelter.

I will forgive myself for all those times that I left myself for last or that I did not even consider myself. And those others in which, even knowing what I wanted, I betrayed myself. Because a necessary condition to be happy is to be at peace with myself, free from guilt, rejection and punishment.

Once I have reconciled myself, that I feel authentic and with enough courage to show myself as I am, I will  begin to build my happiness. That’s how it is. Because if I have learned something, it is that this wonderful feeling will not come knocking on my door, but must be adopted as an attitude towards life. And for this, in addition to loving myself and prioritizing myself, it is essential to appreciate the simple things, those that are there and that most of the time go unnoticed.

Now, just as I will allow myself to be happy, I will also allow myself to be sad. Embracing any type of emotion that I feel will also help me to understand myself and of course, for others to do so. Because if I give myself a chance, deep down I’m also giving it to others.